Tuesday, June 30, 2009

108. Stargazing

Thus far, astronomy is not fun. I'm hoping it'll improve, because it's really killing my back to college buzz. Which is disappointing because I imagined it was going to be supremely fascinating. This textbook has managed to sap all of the beauty and wonder out of the skies like a giant black hole.
HA! Really bad astronomy joke...sorry.

Class just started yesterday and I'm already buried in more reading than my mind can focus on. I find myself wandering off after a paragraph, obsessing over facebook or practicing my viola. WHICH I LOVE.
Even now, I should be reading and I'm not. Stupid blogger.

Ok.
Back I go.
Focus. Focus focus focus.
Fuck-ass.

Monday, June 22, 2009

107. Not So Invincible

I must run on solar power, because the instant the sun disappeared, all my energy went with it. All I want to do is crawl inside the sub woofer and hibernate where the bass goes oom oom oom oom ...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

106. The World is My Gym

In spite of the fact that I am not even a little fan of Nike and their insistence on sweatshop labor, "Just do it" is quite possibly the greatest motivational mantra ever. I ran 2 miles again today, outside, for the second time in a week (and ever). This time I did it alone, and I probably could have kept going, honestly. But I decided to stop at 2 and give my muscles time to acclimate. The more I run, the more I need to run. Not only do I feel better about myself physically, but it keeps my mind balanced. I can finally see things for what they are instead of coloring every situation with only my emotions.

Afterward we hit Greenlake for a 3 mile walk with the dogs. I was sore by the time we finished, but a gourmet dinner at home of lobster tail, papaya, and brie spread over rosemary bread seems to have revived me.

I feel intense - definitely more alive than I have in a very very long time. I am so *on* all the time that I find I can stay awake for 24 hours without any trouble. My energy stores have no bottom. The only thing I can't seem to find time to do is clean my house.

Summer is good. All over.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

105. Hrrnunguh

My first viola lesson was tonight. Fascinating, that.
Frankly, the instrument is so drop dead gorgeous I have trouble focusing on actually playing it. I learned very little in my allotted 30 minutes, except that I need to pay in cash and I could probably use a second job to cover my pursuits of personal enrichment. Also, we discovered that I am sort of double jointed in the thumb region and have a tendency toward locking my pinky rather than curving it.

I'm bored without homework. It's gnawing at me. I wish I was in a writing class just so I'd have something to focus my attentions on. Furthermore, instructors should not charge $1 a minute for their time. It's rude.

Monday, June 15, 2009

104. Ham

Is the color of my face.
I just ran a full two miles, outside, for the first time ever.

It was a celebratory jog. Today was my last day of drawing class. I think I squeaked by with an A-. But even better news! My English professor not only accepted my late essay, she gave me an A. She said I'd been on point the entire quarter and forgave me for my boo-boo.

So hoo-ray! Hoo-ray for school! Hoo-ray for me!

Stop looking at me swan.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

103. .................................

I have returned to being a disjointed and neurotic mess. I suppose that's why I'm finally writing something, because I cannot think straight.

I have heaped my schedule as full as possible with things to enrich and distract me, but whenever I finally have a moment to myself, I slide back into my puddle of woe. It's exhausting to be so completely on and then slam to such a screeching halt over and over again.

My first quarter of school is over in a few days. I have one drawing class left, and I'm fairly certain the English class is wrapping up this weekend. I don't know if I got the A's I wanted so badly, due to a mishap at the very end with my final English paper. I misread the calendar and thought it was due on Tuesday, when really it was due Thursday. I emailed it to my professor, but she specifically said she wasn't accepting late work because it was the last assignment. I can only cross my fingers and hope for the best. I have gotten an A on every single assignment in the class up to this point, so I hope that will carry me through. It was extremely upsetting to work so hard only to have it slip through my fingers at the very end.

For the summer I'm taking Astronomy online, but I have also just signed up for private viola lessons at Kennelly Keys, and of course, still have my weekly riding lesson too. My viola instructor plays with the Seattle symphony. Very exciting. I have a three month rental to try it out and see if it's for me. If it isn't, I plan to move on to something else. Probably piano, since it's a high priority on my list of things to do before I die.